ANOTHER

Honestly, I already care about you less not like before. You’re the one who practiced myself to become like this. Somehow, there’s still doubt. There’s always a doubt but I don’t care anymore. If something might happen then, okay?! I already know the feeling so I’m already used to it. You’re the one who’s making an effort to have me back. I wish you will PROVE and SHOW it in your actions not by just by your words. But I know the LOVE is always there.  So whatever happens, happens. 

Relieved. :)

Thanks God! Alam na nila. Thank you God for giving me such friends who still accepted me for what I’ve done. I told them EVERYTHING. Walang labis and walang kulang. I realized that I already found my true friends who didn’t kicked me off but instead comforted me and understood everything. Though there are times na nagduda sila and hated me for my actions, andyan pa rin sila. Now i feel like a thorn was pulled from my chest. Thank you! They say there are plenty of fish in the sea. Hahaha Kaya to! Nasa akin na daw ang lahat sabi ni Jessah. Qualities of being a good partner. Marami pa daw dyan. I don’t deserve to be treated like this.I guess tama nga. Enough na yun. :)

This is it!!!

It’s over. :) Nawalan nanaman ako ng gana mag-eat, attend classes and everything. Nooooo! Don’t tell me loss weight nanaman. Huhuhu I love my body that much. Hahaha Tama na siguro yung last time na begging and all. I lost my dignity na and increased your ego. That’s why parang wala na lang sayo na mawala ang lahat-lahat. Chaaaaar! Hahaha Kaya ko to! Kaya! Though mahirap, I know I can do this. But always remember that I didn’t regret anything or everything, This is the end! :) BECAUSE I’M HAPPY, CLAP ALONG IF YOU FEEL LIKE A ROOM WITHOUT A ROOF. Thanks Lord. Woooohoooo! You’ll gonna miss me when I’m gone. Hahaha I promise to change myself and be a better me. Promise and swear. I won’t let that one ruin my life. I should continue life and leave that behind. Yessss! :)

I’m lost but I found my way back.

Maybe it’s impossible for me to think about it. After all those pain, tears, frustrations, heartbreaks and desperateness. I intensely begged and never thought of my own self-respect. That one girl who’s willing to do everything just not to break that little thin string that connects between us. It came to a point that I experienced signs of anxiety and depression and lots of sleepless nights. But one afternoon, I realized something. Something I decided to do. I’m already ready for it. Courageously done though painful and sorrowful. I know I can survive it. But you came and asked for my hand again. I didn’t know what to do. I was thinking for all the possibilities and upcoming times in making my decision. I was confused. But you did one thing that changed and amended my thoughts. That’s why I had the courage to accept you again behind all those faults and pains. You promised not do it again. But why am i still scared? If you wan’t us back then why I’m still scared? Why did you return? Everytime we’re not together, I can’t take it but over-think of who’s with you, where are you or what are you doing. There are instances that it’s hard for me to believe you though I know you’re telling the truth. If you wan’t us get back from before then make me feel that you still want me. Make me feel that we’re still in a getting-to-know-you feeling. That feeling when we still starting the word “love”. I understand your busy schedule but make an effort to manage it everything. I know there’s always a possibility and an option for everything. Please let me feel that I’m your everything. Sorry. I love you. Je t’aime.